Every week I try to put a positive spin on life, but I have to tell you that sometimes it is so so hard. People often, almost rightly, think that disability goes hand in hand with courage. But I’m here to tell you that sometimes that image slips and the hard truth comes out.

This week I have struggled to lift one of my feet which makes getting places almost impossible. The two men in my life try to help, but it is a frustrating process. MS is ugly, and can easily make the people impacted by it downhearted too.

I was thinking about this today, and the image of the cross came to mind. Don’t ever think that there was anything beautiful about that. BUT, because of the cross we have a chance to live forever, to have everything we regret wiped out. We are offered a new start. Because of my hateful MS I get to see the best of my children, my husband and my family. I must never forget that all the ugliness of the cross bought us everything and all the ugliness of my sickness bought me indescribable kindness.

If you are in your own kind of hell today, reach out your hands and take the blessings that are waiting for you . I will not let the darkness win, and I know the cross has already dealt with it all. Live your life knowing that and somehow, things will feel a little more bearable.